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thankyou! i simply wont be using this anymore.
I have. Stop bringing this sht up.
Angry? No. Feelings arent ment to be switched off or ignored or hidden away in boxes. Ive already learnt that the hard way. But just because she lost her feelings for me doesnt mean i want to loose mine for her? Obviously there not as string as they use to be. But i know there stil there because Thats the whole point of falling inlove, i just fell harder then i ever thought possible. so no, Ill always love her and care for her even if we never speak again. Probably the hardest thing in my life to accept but i have. That doesnt mean i want to change my feeling and learn to hate her or to turn them off. id rather remember her as the girl i fell inlove with once apon a time instead of growing to hate her and thinking it was a mistake because it wasnt. It was the best time of my life. And if i stil have these feekings doesnt that show i was madly inlove? Why does everyone have to make this sht so dam hard.
No i do not. Honestly i dont want her to think about me. Time to delete this sht again. People only want to talk about her? I dont. My last answer says what goes through my head every time i think of her. So why keep bringing it up? It is not enjoyable for me.
My passed, because of the things ive done. The present, because of who i am. The future. Because im scared of the person i see everytime i think of the future
Agreed. I dont get why this shts coming up again. Its all over so why cant people let it go
Dont talkabout her like that. But ya see from your point of veiw i should have given up after everything. But from my point of veiw, after everything... How could i? But i did and i have because i had no other option. Because she broke down crying in my arm 3 months ago neither of us knowing what to say or do, not knowing if we will ever be able to be in each others lives without so much pain coming from it. On that night i gave up. Because i saw the pain in her heart and the hurt in her eyes. And it was all because of me. It was all my fault. That moment in time will always be stuck in my head every time i think of her. Everytime somone mentions her name or a memory shes apart of. I will always remember the tears steaming down her face and the crackle in her voice as she said 'i dont know what to do anymore'. Ill always love and care for her, i dont have a time machine or an delete button so i cant change it or forget it. As much as i wish i could i cant and i have to live with it. I just want her to be happy and she is, so i dont see why this shts stil being braught up. She hates me and wants nothing to do with me, is it really that hard to understand?
No i do not.
look me and steph went through a lot. since I met her I thought in my head and heart she was the 1. I was wrong. she is with her 1 now and im happy for her. because shes happy. tis all I ever wanted. all that ever mattered. ive gotten on with my life. im fine. I am at peace. now please no more steph crap or ill have to delete this sht again
My feelings for her will never go away. But yes. It took a verry verry verry long time but finally im at peace.
I know most of the time who sends what... Im not an idiot. I can tell by the way it is written and im over it. I know somones reading this right now and to that certain 'somone'i know its you. Your incredibly obvious. Stop it because you dont want me saying any of the **** that i know.dont test me. I want to just move on with life and block all this crap out of my life. I know ive hurt people and i hurt her alot. But ive been hurt aswell. I just want all this **** to stop
Any of my friends, i put there lives above mine. My family, because there my family. And every girl ive ever been with.
The girls are treating me the same way they always have... Nothings changed. Its taken a long time.but im the guy i use to be. And im alot happier now not giving a ****, and btw i dont need a girl. Anyone thinking im going to be tied down think again. Im back baby.
Good on them? Christms is about family. She couldnt be further from my mind. I dont need this. And i dont need her. I will be ok
I am. if im being a **** to you theres probably a reason.
I know. but im aloud to dream aren't I?
Im stil inlove with steph.
Yeah i do sadly stil love her, its never going to happen but if she ever came back, id never let her go. but itll never happen,
the bad times, all the fights, the arguments, the times I made her cry stil haunt me, I cant believe I said the things I did, i was so angry and hurt i lashed out i never ment to hurt her, i never ment to say those things. the good times, falling for her as soon as i saw her at the start of lunch at school, i stil remember how the first kiss we ever had at the end of that lunch break took my breathe away, all the days we just chilled and talked at school to pass the time, all the adventures we went on when we were ment to be in class, all the times i had her in my arms cuddles up in bed, turning our magna into an awesome little smoking station after i crashed it so she could come over every day, chill with me, cuddle up in the car with all the blankets and pillows watching tv shows on my ipad, it was perfect. i miss the drives we use to go on, not with anyone else just us, we didn't need a destination or a reason to go anywhere, just being in the car listening to the radio cruising around for no point at all.... finding all the awesome stoner spots we went to, the river was my favourite, i even miss her family, her little brother was a little **** and a smart as* but i wouldn't change it for the world, i could talk to him and help him out when he needed advice n ****, her mum was always so nice to me, would offer to cook me dinner when ever i was around, and her dad, yeah it was hard to get to know him but after a while we could talk about tv, cars, friend, everything that i could never talk to my dad about, i know its stupid but i remember wishing my family was more like hers, but then i didn't care because it wouldn't matter, because they treated me like family.... theres so many good times we had together, we had our fair share of the bad but i loved her with all my heart since the moment i met her.... your all telling me to move on now? why should i when i haven't gotten over her for the last almost 3 years. shes my little muppet. and always will be, forever and always. my heart has belonged to her. so stop telling me to move on. i don't plan on being hear long enough for it to matter anyways so let me just be happy remembering the amazing times we spend together. and stop reminding me that everything that gave me a reason to get up in the morning isn't there anymore. its hard enough already...
you would never say that about her to my face. pathetic you have to write it on hear. I love her because its steph.... shes the first girl I fell inlove with, shes the girl I imagined waking up to ever morning for the rest of my life, shes the girl i planned out the house the car the family the dog, we planned everything together, we had our whole life together planned out and it was perfect... i stil wouldn't change a thing because that's stil the future i want, you guys are never going to understand why i love steph so much and why its impossible to move on... because you weren't there for all the times we spent together, the good and the bad.... i cant just list reasons why i love her because i love everything about her.... when im with her.... it feels like nothing will ever go wrong, like the safest place in the world is in her arms. like as long as i have her everything will be ok... and i don't have her anymore, everything is far from ok :'(
look I know she probably isn't going to come back to me, but I lost her to brayden. and I lost her to mikki for a year, but she came back. I know theres a 99.99% chance ill never get another chance. but if by some miracle that 00.01%chance happens, ill be ready, ill be waiting for her just like I told her I would. because im inlove with her, I cant help it or change it I wish I could but she's the girl im inlove with... I know it wont happen and im an idiot for keeping this hope inside.... but its all I can do.
I know. I saw. how does that make me feel? for the first time in months I cut this morning. ive been strong and faught every single urge to do it but when I saw that I couldn't help it. it was either that.... or worse. so how do you think it makes me feel? to know the girl im inlove with will never be mine again, the future we planned together will never happen. the plans and dreams we had together will never come true.... it makes me sad, angry, depressed, hollow, empty, incomplete.... broken and suicidal? like something has been missing since she left, and I don't think itll ever come back. I just don't know what to do anymore. just want this pain to end.
I did fight. I faught I begged I cried and after all of that she stil said no because she loves him. don't you ****ing get it!!!!! I DONT ****ING METTER ANYMORE!!!! its over. shes better off without me. she said it herself.
its to late for that
Trust me i know.please just leave me alone. i know im a ****. i know i ****ed up. i know shes happy. i know ill never get her back. i know ok i know. Please just leave me alone. its alot closer to killing me then anyone even reolises.
Pleaae stop.
Its not my biggest wish, its my only wish... but wishes never come true.
Ehh, why bother, itll never happen
At this point, no, i dont think ill ever love anyone more then her. My plan is to take it one day at a time. I dont plan on getting in another relationship. i feel if i do ill just be trying to replace steph and no one can do that. ill move on in time.
Luckily for me ill never be faced with that situation. shes not leaving him, there inlove, she doesnt love me anymore, im just holding onto the past, i need to let go.thats it
Im not bothering until i have everything sorted out,
Exactly. would be easier if you all ****ed off and stopped asking me about her.
Why so i can be torturwd every time i se her or talk to her knowing im not going to have her. moving on is beat for everyone. ~life chapter steph, the end~
How simple everything was
You dont understand. everything reminds me of her, walking past random people ill think its her, driving my car i always think i see her, every song on the radio reminds me of her.... we had our whole future planed out together, the house the cars the dogs and adopting a kid to give them a better life we had ~the life~ planed out. i just ****ed ot all up. i cant just forget about her,
Me either. nobody else bothers
Finally! Somone talking sence! Its the past. lets leave it there because as much as i hate it, its obvious there will be no future...
un not trying to **** anything up for her. I haven't even spoken to her. I cant help how I feel trust me if I could change it I would. nobody wants to be inlove with someone there never going to have. you think this is all fun and games for me? im ****ing miserable!!! im not trying to sabotage her relationship ive said it multiple times that I hope they have a long and happy relationship because she deserves it. I love steph. I don't want to hurt her any more then I already have. shes happy and all I want is to be happy, is that really that much to ask for...
yes. I honestly do. I don't want to drive them apart. I don't want them to split up or anything. there happy together and im happy for them even if that means I cant have her. yeah I miss her like crazy every day and cant stop thinking about her even now after not seeing her for so long, I do stil love her. I think I always will. we use to say forever and always.... that stil stands on my side. but shes happy. good for her. I hope they go the distance.
is it weird that I know who this was by how it was worded... thanks anyways I guess.
Im going to say this really ****ing clear. i NEVER cheated on her. i loved her. i never ment to hurt her. but nothing gives your the right to say that ****. I could never do that to her.
no! I am not a cheater and I would never, EVER cheat on steph.
i dont feel special? i just answer the **** i get.
i see now pretty much everything i did hurt her.
yes it does, every single day. but it doesnt matter, if she is happy that is all that matters. i will always know its my fault. so i cant be mad if she found what she deserves,
If shes happy, thats all that matters.
Working on a car
I cant help what people ask and im going to answer it, its the whole point of this site. and im sorry but im trying to be honest. In a way it helps me get **** out of my head. I dont want to start any fights, i understand she is happy and im not getting her back. i dont want to come between them or anything im happy for them truely, good for them. so can we stop everything now, its over. il move on eventually.
I know. i get it.
I don't know y fears change as time goes on. at the moment im terrified of ending up alone or worse... with the wrong person. or screwing everything up with the right person, but I already did that so how bad can things get
No she liked my status for a like for thing. Barely even no her. You people jumping to conclusions just to make up the latest gossip are ****ing everything for me. If you want to know if I'm liking someone just assume no. Because I'm not. As the last question says. I'm stil inlove with Steph. Silly me but I cant help It.
Haha um wot?!
No she doesn't. She hates me. **** off your not exactly helping atm.
sitting in my magna, just parked in my front yard, no need to go anywhere, seats down, matress blankets and pillows. I don't need to wonder what my best day looks like. ive already lived it, and I remember every second.
haha thankss
hahaha thanks. ive heard
lets not go into that...
i dont know weather your writting this in sincerity or to try get to me... but it does s*ck. i didnt reaolise what i had until it was to late. i **** up yet again and there nothing i can do to change it because shes happy. end of the day i was never going to be able to make her as happy as he can. and she is, so thats all that matters, hopefully in time ill get over it but theres always going to be a massive place in my heart for her so im not going to pretend to be ok and put on a fake smile because im not happy, i know people out there give me alot of **** and hate me and all but all i want is for her to be happy. i was stupid and selfish and only thought about myself. she was better then i ever deserved and now she is with somone that truely deserves her, his a good guy and will take care of her. i hope there happy for years to come. now lets never speak of this again.
who is this....
Sorry priverate infomation. thats for me and her to know at this stage
depends who you are. if you meaning in a 'romantic' way then honestly i probably am lieing. there is only 2 people i would consider actually being with. 1 is my ex witch is never going to happen for obvious reason </3 and the other person isnt even in victoria and hasnt been for a fair time. so guess what people. it looks like single ryan is hear to stay for a while.
yeah its her. guess im an idiot but after everything. I stil wish she'd come back. but she wont. shes in love so it doesn't matter. so they will stay locked away hidden under my bed
nobody. liking people gets you hurt. feelings can make you on top of the world or absolutely destroy you, I say, is it worth the risk? feelings should be locked away where they cant hurt you. sure you might 'miss' being happy but that's what drugs are for (the legal kind). I just don't see the point in it anymore. after last time. I just dont think I can do it for a while. im happy on my own with amazing friends. I don't need a chick, and even 'id' I did bring out my feelings again, there only ever going to be for 1 person. was just to stupid to realize that. #late night thoughts, 4 simple words have sent my night into a major mind **** and now I cant clear my head ~_~
umm wot....
haha why thank you :)
i just want to have a nice mechanics shops where i can work on cars. thats what i want to do and i cant wait until the grand opening :) thatll be the best day of my life
in the near future..... doubtful. im in no rush
well if im not then theres probs a reason haha
it doesnt matter. im over fighting, just deleting everything and moveing past it. to ried to fight about it
25 ish, no sooner.
i know they get hurt and i dont blame them for everything. but if they cheat and then dump me then your im going to blame them. **** ive been cheated on 12 times and dumped over facebook or text every time. nobody has had the guts to do it to my face. or talk to me about it befor they dump me because even after they cheat on me i would stil be with them, every body makes mistakes, and ive made my fair share, but the people that have cheated on me will be able to tell you that i stil wanted to be with them after wards.... i dont blame my ex's for everything. i blame my self for almost everything. not being good enough, not being there when hey needed me, not telling them how mch they mean to me, i take on alot of the blame, but people only ask **** on hear to piss me off and yeah i get upset and propbably make alot out to be there fault, but i dont mean to. it takes 2 to tango. dont get me wrong all my ex's have ****ed up. but ive only ever broken up with 1 person. and that was a massive mistake. but that was my fault. so no i dont blame my ex's for everything, but if it is there fault, they should get the blame. cheaters are the worst, even if i forgive them straight away every time :/
and what you dont think im over all this bull****? ive been abused every day for the last 3 months just because i put myself first for the first ****ing time in my life. im sorry that other people cant keep there ****ing mouth shut. i delete 99.9% pf all the bull**** i get on hear because its abuse and most of it is from her **** head friends that cant keep there mouth shut!!!! im not looking to start more ****, but people dont need to keep telling me ill never be good enough. she made that clear herself. your wankas dont have to get in the middle of it and if you didnt then this all would have been over and done with 2 months ago!!! shes happy and im happy for her. but that doesnt mean i want her. it doesnt mean i love her and it doesn't mean i want her back in my life, im quite happy with out her. or at least i would be with out all of this crap so leave me alone!!!! and to all the people sending me **** threatening me that if i ever go near her blah blah blah all that bull**** you have nothing to worry about, after everything thats happened and how much she hurt me, seeing her face just makes me sick. so for the last time leave me the **** alone! its over!
rather not say tbh
thank you!!!!!!! holy **** some one gets me!
i have nothing to say to her, i dont want to talk to her, but if i had to id probably say 'thanks for being everything you promised you never would be. thanks for doing the things you never said you would, thanks for being just like everyone else. thanks for not being there when ive needed you the most over the last 2 months, thanks for destroying me right when i was getting better, now ive fallen back to all my old habbits. i know i was never perfect, but i tried my best, and when it came down to it my best wasnt good enough, i hope your happy, i hope he makes you smile, but most of all, i hope i never have to see you again. because seeing your face, makes me sick. because ill never look at you the same way. enjoy your life. cya' thats what id say
idif i could id go back pg stop myself from ever talkin to her. she made me happy, but the damage that was caused it the process is to much, i feel it every day and i fear it'll never go away. aint that sad.
giving people chances when they didnt deserve it. forgiving people for hurting me just so they can do it again. my biggest regret though would be my last proper relationship. that was always going down in flames. and taking a risk on certain people just to be ****ed around. im finally back on track. bo ***** with t*** will **** this up.
vecause i like being a c-u-n-t to much
i dont miss the friendship, i dont miss the fighting, i dont miss the bull****, i just miss her, plain and simple,
yeah i can be, at times
only if you ear n the cutness, that **** aint free;)
How fast can she take it! Put it on that as* until the nigga cant take it. i havent looked it up yet but love my nigga beats
Hahaha im pre adorable
Is that even a serious question? All she did was start bull**** drama, so much better with the bull**** in that friendship
i can happily say that i randomly saw her today at tafe and she smiled and waved at me but i kept walking without feeling a thing. i honestly cant stand the site of her right now and i dont know if that will change any time soon tbh. deep down maybe? but nothing that even matters anymore considering.
haha well you dont have a chance if your messageing me on qooh.me? inbox me fool :) x
well thats just k**ky AS ****!!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahaha oh my ****! ~_~
smoke a bong and chill the **** out!
wouldnt mind for alot of people to come bac into my life, but i dont want any one to come back in the way they left tbh, if people are to come back into my life. they better be coming back as a friend or not at all. end of story.
no.
can we please not go into that haha
right now, im not home so hoping no one goes there. but i wouldnt mind for alot of people to come back into my life, and alot of people are talking about it but never back it up, so its just a case of who does it first,
im 90% sure i know who im going to end up with. until i know 100% im not telling anyone and im just winging it. if you really want to know then inbox. and dont say your scared to or what ever because it obvious who this is. im not an idiot so stop treating me like one and inbox me.not that hard so stop wasting time and just do it